The weight of the world was on my shoulders. Or so it felt. There was nothing that anyone could say or do, short of prayer, that could help make me feel better. It was just one of those days.
You know what I'm talking about.
Those days...those days where you can't see beyond right where you are at that moment. No light for the next step, no encouraging moment or word that helps to lessen the load. Nothing seemed to break me from the dreariness that wanted to overwhelm my soul. I was nearing the bottom of the pit.
I snuck down to the basement with the phone in my hand so that I could be alone. I was crying even before she said, "Hello?"
There is just something about a girlfriend who knows what you need even before you do, whether to be silent or speak, what to say or not to say, how to love on you even from 300 miles away. There is comfort in a companion like this.
I poured my soul out on her, and she didn't miss a beat. Comfort. I bared it all, beauty and ugly, all of it. No judging, no questions asked. Comfort. She prayed. Comfort.
As the night wore on and my spirits lifted a bit, I found the most comfort in this truth:
There is no pit so deep, that God is not deeper still.
He knows when we'll reach the end of our rope. And yet, He's already there!
He knows our needs. He's already got them covered.
He knows my fears. He speaks Truth to me despite them.
He knows Jeff's frustrations. He meets him and helps him.
He knows our hearts, better than we know ourselves.
God knew that Jeff would become unemployed. It doesn't worry Him. He's already got great plans for our next step. And even when I don't know what those plans look like, or when they'll come to fruition, I know that He is with me.
What comfort I find in that. In Him.